Sunday, October 31, 2010

Day after parties

My allergies make me have to miss out on some social things.  Sometimes, like last night, I am able to go to parties and have some fun.  One thing I notice though is that my allergies are always bad the day after I go to a party.  Maybe I am just not as careful when I am at a party with avoiding things I am allergic to, but then it should affect me right away.  If I get through the party feeling ok, I go to bed ok and then I wake up the next day with really bad allergic reactions. 

Today my nose feels like there are tiny pointy sticks up in both my nostrils.  Makes it tickle really badly and giving me alot of sneezing fits and a very runny nose.  I am too stuffed up to blow my nose and I hate that.  My nose feels all filled up but I can't do anything about it.  That's just one thing I can never understand, that my nose can be so stuffed up yet so runny at the same time!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

New idea

I think what I will start doing is make more shorter posts about how my allergies have been recently.  I find making the long posts about the past pretty challenging.  Not exactly sure why.

Last few days have been better and worse with my allergies.  They are fluctuating some.  Last night they got pretty bad but today they aren't as bad.  I am planning on hanging out with friends later and I think it is pretty doable today. Without the constant irritation of so much pollen, now its more about trying to avoid being around all the other things that cause my allergies.   Until the winter really gets going, the hardest will be heating systems kicking up all the dust that settled into them over the year.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Short one

I just wanted to check in with a short post.  I am having problems again with writing real posts.  I have a post partly written but I just am not in the mood much to write it all  up.

Its starting to get colder so that means much less pollen, so that will help my allergies a little bit.  Because of so many months of my nose and sinuses being totally over-tweaked by pollen it takes a while for them to calm down though.  Also, when heating systems start to come on, they tend to kick up some dust and that can bother me too.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

People can be mean

I had mentioned in an earlier post about people being mean and I think someone asked for me to write more about it.  I am going to post here a few of my experiences with people who suck and/or don't really seem to care about other people.

I can split these people into 3 categories.  Some who think they are being funny and say stuff in public areas, some who just don't care/understand and are mean because of that, and some who are just deliberately mean.

Sometimes I would hate the public people the most because it can feel the most embarrassing.  Many times in high school, but also some in college or in other public places where many people are around, some would yell out stuff.  I would start sneezing and after a number of sneezes, people would laugh, and someone would yell "BLESS YOU!" loudly many times.  Some people might yell "why are you sneezing so much?", or "OMG!  Just stop!", or other things like that.  I hate all the attention that draws to me.  The worst was sometimes at lunch in HS, I wold have a very long fit and the lunchroom would start to get all quiet because everyone was listening to me and looking at me and laughing.  Sometimes I really wanted to cry from embarrassment.  I can deal with it better now.  I do run off to the bathroom often when I start having a fit in public.  I tend to miss parts of many movies.

I have had to deal with many people who just didn't care.  I would go to someones house and they  had an animal that I was allergic to, or just something in the house would set me off.  They say that I will get used to it in a bit, or my allergies would calm down, or that I was making too big a deal.  If I didn't have a ride sometimes I would sit there feeling and looking miserable and not be able to get away.  I also knew some people who didn't believe I was allergic to something or think that maybe it was all in my head.  They hid the animal, or flowers or whatever before I came over.  My allergies would get worse and worse and I had no idea why.  Then they say "Oh, we didn't think you were really allergic to it"

There were a few people who deliberately set off my allergies because they wanted to upset me or mess something up for me, or I guess they were just plain mean.  The main one was someone in HS who just really hated my guts.  She blamed me for stuff that wasn't even my fault and kept trying to get back at me.  She discovered she could set off my allergies at really bad times for me.  I didn't find this all out until much later.  Once she did it before I was going to meet up with a guy I was interested in.  My allergies got so bad that it screwed it all up.  One time she stole the tissue box out of my backpack and in class when I started having a bad sneezing fit I couldn't find them and I had to keep sneezing into my hands and I couldn't deal with the snottiness and dripping and everything and that was really horrible and embarrassing!  Another time she got a hold of my tissue box and put dust or pollen or something all around in there.  Of course I was using the tissues and not knowing so I kept getting worse and worse all day and I had no clue why.  That one was really miserable!

I have had people tell me my allergies were bothering them, my sneezing was a disruption, that I should be able to control them better, or that I was deliberately exaggerating them.  They all really suck!  I don't get why people have to be like that.  Its not as bad as it was in high school, but I think some people just don't get it.  I wish they would.

Quick update

Sorry I haven't made a blog entry in a while.  I have still been feeling stuck.  I am in the process of making 2 entries.  I just have been going slow with writing them.

This weekend was pretty icky for me.  Yesterday I was sneezing for almost 15mins straight.  That really takes alot out of me.  Its so hard when I am sneezing for so long.  I just want it to stop but it feels like it will go on forever.  Its so exhausting too.  I can't even do anything else during it.  I just keep sneezing and sneezing and it feels like I have no control.

I also didn't get much sleep at all last night.  My allergies were too bad for me to sleep more than like 10-15mins at a time and then I'd be awake for a long time in between. 

At least when winter comes these things don't really happen that much.  That constant pollen allergy isn't there so its a bit easier for me to avoid many of the other things I am allergic to.